Relationships are formed quite often. Sometimes as often as every day. We strive to maintain some of them and let some just slip.But I have found that it is very difficult to renew a relationship that has been dormant for years ( in my case 25). After the usual talk of catching up on "what are you doing now?what are the kids doing?where do you stay now?Do you remember......? (of course I don't)" and "Oh!! that's nice", there seems to be very little to say. It is almost impossible to get back the same level of friendship,love that you once shared.The very exercise of trying to renew the relationship seems futile.I spend the rest of the day trying to remember the "do you remember...?" people, and of course I draw a blank.And then there was the heaviness in my mind of remembering what had caused the rift in the first place.
So I think it must be best to let sleeping relationship lie and die.

studying

to study or not to study.
do i have to see everything from a usefullness angle.
why cant i just do something becoz i like to?

jealous of the unknown

i met the wife of a friend-who was once upon a time a boy. we met for the first time. she checked me out from top to toe.she peered into my eyes to see if they really had green flecks.she measured the length of my long hair and commented on its scantiness. she mentally assessed my voluminous girth.i saw her surreptitiously check out my complexion against a strip. she questioned my various abilities as if i had applied to her for a job. she was trying to find out if it was safe for her husband

(my friend) to meet me again after a gap of nearly 30 years! finally she called him up and allowed me to talk to him (of course listening in to my end of the conversation).

oh my god!!!